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Tuesday, September 4th, 2007
2:54 pm	no body reads this shit okay furballs, (if anyone decides to read this in the near future) I've given up in CO, I think Im just gonna go back to SD and live there for awhile, its too hard for this fragile kitty down here, I should of just said screw it and moved back after I got arrested.. now I have no car and my bus pass expired before I even got any job offers, and I cant go around scrounging up a dollar fifty every day... fuck fuck fuck... so all of you on LJ that read my rantings, goodbye and goodluck, Im gonna go eat my soul now.. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Evanescence- Anywhere (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 23rd, 2007
4:50 pm	more drama Im getting rather sick of my depression, I feel so lonely and so miserable, I went to help an ex move out of her place and she didnt really do anything for me... Im getting tired of bullshit, being yelled at.. I just dont know what the fuck to do anymore, Im so tired of it all... (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 13th, 2007
11:46 am	Fuck that! your just gonna push me aside like I'm a little bitch?! she didn't even have the audacity to tell me she was already mated!! do you know how bad that pisses me off??! this is bullshit, I'm so tired of getting fucked around by all these females.. I don't know what to do, and I sure as hell cannot go gay, that would be too much drama in and of itself, I'm tired of everything, maybe I should renounce my fandom, curl up in a little ball and play hide and go fuck myself! fuck this bullshit called life, I need some grass... -__- Current Mood: Pissed (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 29th, 2007
10:40 am	it never fails, Im so sick of these girls trying to make a move with me, but then something happens and we can't see eachother, well, this time it was my banks fault and she got pissed off at me for nothing... now Im not even sure if she wants to talk to me again because of something stupid, but hey if she wants to think I was lying to her, I guess the relationship really isnt worth it, even though she happened to be a babyfur... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 18th, 2007
3:11 am	Im numb I cant seem to do anything right anymore, I keep losing my mates over stupid shit, its just making my life worse every fucking day... I wish I knew what to do but I don't, I feel so numb and depressive, tyvara broke up with me and now my head is going crazy trying to figure out what the fuck Im supposed to do... and Im not even over Liana... its just making me more and more crazy, making my head dizzy and driving me to drink more to forget myself... my misery seems to be never-ending... Im so tired of everything... I wished for someone to save me, and no one did... now what am I supposed to do? I cry every night because I'm so confused... please, someone take my misery away before it becomes too much, I fear it already has... but I just dont know about anything anymore. *sigh* Current Mood: crushed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 20th, 2006
7:16 pm	fucking furries and theyre drama okay, a couple of these fucking housemates keep fighting like cats and dogs, he treats her like shit and he puts up with it, Im getting awful tired of it myself and its gonna wind up as something bad if these two dont take a fucking break from this bullshit, she's crying behind me... I want to stand up and beat his ass for how he treats her... Im getting awful sick of this house and the drama therein, I think Im gonna move in with my mate soon... -__- Current Mood: discontent (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 18th, 2006
5:36 pm	life seems to be looking up at this point, I now have a beautiful mate named tyvara, she is the prettiest girl ever... :D she makes me smile when I hear her voice, she brightens my day whenever she is online or around me, I think I love her ;) Current Mood: horny (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 11th, 2006
6:53 am	I feel so worn out and depressive -_-... my eyes are filled with tears when I go to bed, I try not to be emo but it doesnt work, I always somehow manage to piss someone off, like the Ivan and Kahuki otter for instance, my life is slowly going to hell and Im in the back seat, watching helplessly ;_; I want someone to love and cuddle, sure Koga was a great mate but he just wasnt what I was looking for... I cant sleep at night because my mind is set to overdrive... its seven in the fucking morning and Im wide awake... *sigh* I just dont know what to do anymore... (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 10th, 2006
9:49 am	okay, as much as I despise LJ, I am forced to commit my little experience to the other side of insanity... its about last night, I was having a shitty day because my brother was threatening to kick me out and the only lead I got on trying to find a friend was cut short because her number was disconnected... it said it was changed but it was someone elses # =/ so anyway! that was a bummer... but meh, I'll live. the upside to this whole rant is I got cuddled by two of the sweetest foxes evah! omg, fritz and freefox are so gentle and cute... I slept like a cub because I was a the kitty in the middle :D that was the plus to my evening XD (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 2nd, 2006
5:48 pm	been awhile well, sometimes I just dont know what to do... I just keep falling apart between relationships and all this bullshit we call life, granted I dont have the best life, thats why I do alot of the shit I do, some people want me to change who I am, and that I cant, and if anyone doesnt understand that, fuck them! I've honestly changed alot since I last posted... I dont think li loves me anymore for the simple fact I smoke, thats okay tho :) Im sure somebody out there will love me! :D (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 6th, 2005
9:43 am	I guess this is the best place to write down my feelings... it feels like my relationship with Li is falling apart, I love her so much, but between my schooling, my sleep pattern, jobhunting, and when I actually had a job, inbetween it all I dont talk to her as much as I used to and as much as I'd like to, it feels like Im not filling the role of daddy as well as she'd like, Im nowhere near as intimate with her anymore, it feels like we're slipping, and for me, thats the worst that could happen, she was my only ray of sunshine when my world was dark and cold, now it feels like that ray is fading, Li... I cant lose you, but at this current rate it feels like I might, everytime I look at your LiveJournal and I see something about cub out time and stuff like that, like with Dee from Iheartdiapers2. I wish that was me, I want so badly just to fly up there and hold you in my arms, I want to give you all the cub time you want, I want to give you all the snuggles in the world, I want to be intimate with my baby girl, I want to feel my loves breasts, I want to lick you from your head to your toes, I want to change your wet little diapers, I want to kiss you so lovingly, I want to tell you im here for you, I want you to call me daddy and say you love me... she's all I had going in my life. I get jealous of others, I want you all to myself, I know that may seem selfish but I love you, your my baby, my one and only love, no one can amount to everything you've done and shown me, Li. I want you to make an important decision, do you want to stay with me? or do you want to move on for awhile and see how things go with others? I want you to be happy no matter what. I love you, your loving and caring mate, Dino (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 24th, 2005
7:45 pm	alright bitches, been awhile, up and coming, nothing new in the job department, passed the first part of my ged with flying colorz, rawk on, I've noticed that my past entries are extremeley angsty, but meh, I bitch too much, and where better to do it than LJ? lol! well........ Im super bored, listening to some angsty punk rawk, chittchattin wif my friends online, dealing with morons and teenage angst, lol, well, I suppose thats it for now, ttyl Current Mood: happy Current Music: Shinedown- .45 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
1:31 am	Li, Im here for you for everything, I hope you dont have diabetes, I have a chance of getting it as well... I love you (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
1:36 am	hey all, just lookin for more buddies to read my LJ... just add me as a friend etc... Current Mood: numb Current Music: 4 strings [vinyl]- Diving (original vocal mix) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
3:23 pm	god I feel like such a screw up, I always manage to fuck things up, Im scared Im gonna lose Li because I havent been paying much attention to her, she always says its ok, but I feel like Im hurting her, I dont want to lose her, Im sorry Li, and I fucked shit up with my parents again, I was supposed to sign up for taking my G.E.D test, instead I've just been slacking... god, Im so fuckin stupid, I've managed to fuck alot of things up lately... ttyl Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Black balloon- GooGooDolls (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
6:05 am	Your Gothic... Maybe even a bit Vampyric... Your very sensitive, sometimes you can be outgoing in your own population. Your sometimes Lonely, but when your alone your much happier. If your suicidal, it's okay, because your the kewlest person I know!....well don't actually know you but yeah! Write me and Tell Me if you picked Napoleon or Ron! Are you a Vampire/Goth/Punk/Poser/Emo/ or just a plain PREP!? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
6:02 am	Your Hidden Power Is Water You have a rather calm soul, but when tempted will get pissed off at those who bug you. You do whatever you can in your powers to help those of your allies and have a okay taste for human kind, but you find them rather annoying on occasions. Gem Stone: Saphire, Eye Color:Ice Blue,Hair Color:Dark Blue that's long that goes to your waist. Quote:If you wait for me Then I'll come for you. Although I've travelled far, I always hold a place for you In my heart. If you think of me, If you miss me once in a while, Then I'll return to you. I'll return and fill that space in your heart What Is Your True Hidden Power? .::Beautiful Anime Pics::. brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
5:55 am	In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything because your eyes are covered up by tears! You are constantly hurt and depressed... No one seems to understand how you feel because everyone is scared to get close to you... You long to be able to reach out and tell someone everything, and all of your problems... But you have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to want to hear what you have to say. You've been hurt many times that you don't seem to have any tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an endless river flowing... You've started to hide and bottle up all or your problems and feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go away... You want company, but at the same time, you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your room where you can just be alone and try to throw away all of your aching pains. You're dark and mysterious and people like you for that reason. Even if you think you're all by yourself in the dark, someone is always there with you. Your special someone wants to admit and show their feelings towards you, but they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out more and enjoy life because, it is far too long to frown your way through :) What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!) brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
5:36 am	hey all, sorry I havent updated in awhile, no one really reads this shit anyway, lol, Im like really fuckin lost right now, Im confuzzled to hell too... one thing that has kept me sane, my mate and my love, some may know her as babyFreya. (okies, so Im clingy =P) not a whole lot to write about, I just want the fuck out of SD and I want to go up to NYC for several reasons, 1: my mate. 2: Culinary school. 3:lotsa historical stuff 5:Tourist traps!!... newho, life sucks, one of my friends tried to kill herself, sucks... kinda a best friend type a person... glad she didnt die tho... I mean, my life kinda sucks as it is, but I have never lost a friend to suicide and that would have been the first, so yeah... goddess, I also feel like I lost another one of my best friends. to, get this! RELIGION, fuckin bullshit, now I dont let that shit get in the way, but he fuckin changed, into like a complete dick, clingy before and waaaaay over protective, now a complete ass, totally full of himself, I didnt really fuckin cry tho... I'm used to bein hurt. Oh also Im writing a CareBears AB/DL/babyfur Fanfic! yay! *does a happydance* Also, Freya. Hope you get to feelin better and I hope the stitchies heal up soon! love yall! Peace, Luvs, n' bubble gum!....cya Current Mood: tired and crap like that Current Music: Trance (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
3:12 pm	take the "what's your dark secret?" quiz | courtesy of mewing.net. where darkness and secrecy abound. (Comment on this)